Retrieval

Retrieval went well. I have been reading a lot about posting numbers and have decided to not post any numbers. I will say that I was lucky enough to have every follicle have an egg. At this point I will take that! My expectation was pretty low today so to end the day feeling positive is where I need to be right now.

I did have an odd part of the day. we arrived to the clinic early so my husband could provide his sample. I began to get really nervous, which I never do. We waited awhile, although they were not busy and I just started to have all sorts of questions. what if i ovulated early? what if they don't bring him in the room? it was insane stuff. The nurse was not overly helpful and even asked me what day was day 1. Hello. here we are at retrieval. my clinic is entirely electronic and has a flowsheet with all information per cycle. and in fact patients have access to it so i know damn well what is there. all i thought was great i get the lazy nurse today. when she put my hr monitor on my hr was at 100. i think the anxiety was getting to me and my husband tried to relax me. when my RE came in, who is just the most positive person, i broke down and for the first time through an ivf cycle I cried in front of him. I told him I didn't know why but i was nervous today. and he said the most magical thing to me. "You are normal". He hugged me and reminded me of positive thinking for the day. I said outloud what I felt; that i was happy that he was there. There was a part of me that was worried that something was going to happen to me. I still don't know where this came from, but it was there. And it was real. Thankfully, my friend the anesthesiologist came in and we got to the good part. my heart rate lowered soon thereafter. Luckily I realized later that I was dehydrated between the long drive last night, no fluids, and only 4 hrs of sleep my body kicked in.

Anyway, I want to thank many of you for your thoughts and prayers. I felt your presence today and clearly I needed it.