On Board!

Embies are home where they need to be. It was a very long weekend as I woke up on Saturday ill and with a fever. I don't know about anyone else but I feel enormous pressure for my cycle to go perfectly and it seems that I am never sick until I have something major going on. I guess that is life. I called the clinic and they had me take Tylenol to bring down the fever. I generally don't need to take anything after retrievals, but I did it as I wanted nothing to screw up my transfer. I am just going to pray that this does not mess up my chances. But it also reminds me that I can't control everything in life.

This might sound strange. But I do not POAS. I know, its crazy five ivfs and I just do not do it. No I don't love the surprise, for me it comes down to money. I feel like I have spent enough time and money on this process that I do not buy any more supplies so to speak. I also have always had this weird feeling that I will just know if I am pregnant. I might consider it this time around, but probably not. For now I am going to focus on positive thoughts only and just enjoy the accomplishments from this cycle. I feel as though we did everything we were asked to do, more acupuncture, less dairy, endo biopsy, HGH (a very small fortune), support groups, not thinking about it too much, relaxing..you ladies know the deal. My husband said it perfectly; he reminded me that I did everything humanly possible for this cycle to work. He is really trying to think positive and yesterday after the transfer he took a cell pic of the US screen and remarked that he was starting the baby book. adorable!

Thank  you ladies for all of your support. I know some of you are experiencing losses right now and others are in the mist of cycles. You are all in my thoughts. I pray daily that this journey brings us all the endings we deserve.