Thank you all for the messages. I wanted to provide a quick update. I asked for a repeat SHG. I was due for one despite having 2 endo biopsies and a hysterscopy in November. As you recall nothing ever shows anything for me. labs, surgery, blood work all normal. until last Friday. they found something. yup, something. we don't know what it is, but i had an abnormality in my uterus.
In some odd way I was relieved. finally something that could be wrong. my amazing nurse scanned all of my others tests and scans and it is definitely is new. so i now have to get yet another hysterscopy done. I handled it fine, lets face it I am use to bad news. But my poor husband broke down. for the first time ever he wanted to stop treatment. he fears that this growth is cancerous. he told me that he wants me to be here healthy kids or no kids. thankfully he is doing much better now but last weekend was way too many nights of no sleep.
I have also started a mock cycle to get it done. if i use an egg donor i will need one so i am trying to get ahead of the game or at least do something. I need some advice. my nurse told me that there is a chance that those that fail egg donor cycles possibly are just women who reject every embryo. i literally have been ill since hearing this. she also said there is no way of testing for this at all. i am going to lose my mind if we save again use an egg donor and it fails. if i am destined to have no kids then i want to move on.
if anyone knows about this please let me know. you ladies are the smartest women i know!
I wish I had advice and answers on your question...but i'm so glad to hear that they found "something"...I, of course, mean that in the best way. I remember crying many times because I so badly wanted them to find something.
ReplyDeleteI've been thinking about you and will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers. <3<3
thank you so much maria! the prayers are so appreciated!
DeleteWhen will you know what is in your uterus? Hoping that it is nothing serious and you can get some answers.
ReplyDeletei should know more as soon as my mock cycle ends...thank you though. and i loved your post today. those stories keep me going in this battle or war i now say.
DeleteI can totally understand why you would feel relieved that they found something. I am hoping that you get some answers soon that will lead you to your BFP!!!
ReplyDeletethank you sweet lady. and congrats on your decision and next steps!
DeleteIt's so hard to go on this journey and not get answers or reasons. It's stressful, maddening and just plain sucks! I hope that this "something" is easily treatable and gives you want you want. Answers & a BFP!
ReplyDeletethank you so much
DeleteI hope that whatever is in your uterus turns out to be nothing too major. As for the success rates of using donor eggs, I don't think your nurse should have ever said that. IVF is not a 100% guarantee whether you are using your own eggs or someone else's. the odds can greatly increase, but I believe it is still around the 60% range. The good thing with using donor eggs, is that you should have several embryos. I would suggest that if it doesn't work the first cycle, that you at least went forward with a second FET.
ReplyDeletethank you so very much. i appreciate the advice. i will be probably asking you for fet advice soon enough! you are in my ths over the next few weeks as you wait for betas and everything else. i am so very happy and excited for you!!!
DeleteYou can ask me anything, I'm happy to help! FET cycles are WAY easier than fesh cycles though. My email is pantheramber@gmail.com
ReplyDeleteThank you so much! Hopefully it will be your turn soon as we'll :)