This is how I feel today. Going back to where it all started. Today I am having a natural IUI. I completed a mock cycle to get one on the books so if I pursue a donor it is done. I need to wait one more period before I can repeat the hysterscopy since I was not at baseline after taking the estrace. So the mystery to wait for what is in my uterus will have to wait some more.
Through all of this I have been so lucky. My body responds well and bounces back. When the nurse told me that there was a chance my natural hormones would kick in and ovulate I just had a feeling all would work out. So here I am with a 21 plus follicle. Do I have a gazillion gallons of hope that a natural iui will work, no but why not try it?! It reminds me of our first month at the clinic. We did a natural IUI, then a clomid IUI, and then 3 injectable cycles of an IUI. It seemed like so much, boy did I not have a clue of what we in store for me.
I always appreciate luck and prayers. I am enjoying reading all of my blogs. Some of you just got some hard earned BFPs, others are cycling, and some are like me trying to figure out what the summer will bring. My nurse told me something the other day that I thought I would share with you. She had said that women like us have more patience and strength than most. She had told me that the urge for her to be a mother would have eaten at her and she would not have been able to keep cycling. So please whenever you are all down remember that what we do every day is not always what others could handle. Yes we all should appreciate the positives in our lives, focus on other things etc. But wanting a baby, another baby, your 4 th baby, whatever it is, it is very hard work. I am going to try to keep that in my mind the next time I tell myself those dreaded words: I can't.