Wednesday, May 8, 2013

failure

BFN

seriously, what else is new right. You would think after 5 ivfs and now another iui  I would get use to it. But I am not. I felt numb all day and just angry. I have had enough. Seriously not even a damn chemical. I had 6 follicles for this iui?! anyway I basically told my husband that life sucks right now. I am not going to pretend to be happy when I am not.

I did not even take the sappy clinic phone call I was in no mood. I have no next steps and honestly I am really starting to wonder if this will ever happen.

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  1. I am sorry puzzle. This whole this is BS. BIG virtual hugs!

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  2. i am just so damn sorry! i'm here for you. <3<3

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    1. thank you so much. i appreciate the thoughts and prayers m ore than i can express

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  3. Oh no!!! I am so sorry :( Even under the ideal circumstances (which I think you have now) the chances are in favour of IUI taking a few cycles to work. I was really hoping you would be one of the lucky ones who got pregnant on your first try.... sending you a huge hug!

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    1. thank you. i was hoping for once it would be easy

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  4. eff. i'm sorry, lady. this sucks. thinking of you!

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  5. i am so sorry. It never gets easier. I was really hoping this is what would do it for you.

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  6. Ugh, so sorry. BFNs are never ever easy and I wouldn't wish them on my worst enemy. Hope you can find some peace eventually but for now be angry or sad or whatever you need to be! Hugs.

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  7. I don't think you ever get use to it and it never gets easier. Each BFN sucks as much as the last one

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  8. just wanted to let you know you're in my prayers.
    <3<3<3

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    1. thank you so much sweet lady. PLease have a very happy and blessed first mommy day!!!

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  9. Oh no. I'm so sorry. I was so hopeful for you. It really is quite sucky. It's okay to be sad for a bit. Big hugs!

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